Alla Russia, agli asini e agli altri

And when everybody is sleeping and so should I, I am still awake counting sheeps and hours separating me from my departure.

I flew back to Dublin tonight, never ever a Ryanair fligh in my life (pfffff, last famous words). Always late, no confort in the plane and this time I was even sick, which is not Mr O'Leary's fault, of course, but just contributed to make me even more irritable! Fortunately I had my book with me, and Rudy's company. He and his lovely "friend with benefit" (sorry about that, dunno how to spell her name!) drove me back home and I could die among my bags and half-packed boxes.

There you go, here we are , it's real now, the final countdown started, only 10 more days (well, who knows, actually, I should maybe book my ticket now?!?). Then? Big big huge mistery. You can bet if you want, or you can do a wish for me! The only certain thing is that I still have 38.5°C (around 101 F I guess) for the fourth day, but still don't want to take any drug! Oh yes!

Back home for Christmas, I don't even know what I was expecting from these holidays, I can only say that I feel in limbo, no sensations at all, just my usual confusion back.

Did I take the right decision? And what will it bring in my daily life in the next 6 months? And in the next year?

Am I ready to go back to Italy and restart university?

No emotions, no excitement for Genoa, no melancholy for Dublin, just stuck in this transition, waiting for the evolution. And family transition are not always the best ones.

Last night I bought my new Moleskine diary for 2008, today my main duty is gonna be to fill it in with all my project and dreams, hoping for most of them to become real!

In the meanwhile just a big wish for New Year, that it brings to you what you want more!

This blog existed for such a long long time. I created it a few years ago, while stuck in sweltering Italy in a sick summer of desease and uneasiness I decided to communicate with the world.

I cancelled now all my old posts, because they are a part of something that doesn't belong to me anymore, however I bring those experiences with me. Then it has been Paris and the Dublin, and next is Genoa.

I will try to write in English just to keep in touch with my friends all around the world, even do if I know that most of you are not really internet-addicted as I am!

Right now I am in my small lovely room, I wait for an answer for tonight. It's my second last night in Dublin before Christmas, I stare at the walls with the millions of pics I have stuck, my friends, my parties, my travels, my life. I cannot believe yet that in less than one month I will be away, the walls will get white back, and I will have my two Irish years packed away somewhere, waiting for a new house. But it's time to move on and everybody who had the unconfortable role of Claudia's surrounding in the past few months knows how long did the decision take to get mature.

This last weeks in Dublin have been absolutely amazing, I felt so much the life moving around myself, I met again and again all my best friends and new amazing friends, I went out for dinners, for chats, for parties, I stayed at home and just had lovely conversation with my housemates, I enjoyed myself and Dublin so much.

Life should always be like that, just enjoy every single second of it, as if we would all the time about to leaving, as everytime would be a good bye. Thanks everybody to have made that possible!